May 2012
1 post
The Dove.
A vision, a beauty, an angel,
Alabaster skin as white as marble,
Temptation evaded her pure mind,
Sinful deeds seemed oh so kind.
Lust.
None were as beautiful as this kind dove,
Her heart overflowed with unconditional love.
Hatred evaded her affectionate mind,
Venomous deeds seemed oh so kind.
Truth.
She looked up at the clear blue sky,
Eyes bluer than the ocean, she’d never...
April 2012
3 posts
Clarity.
I hear the clock ticking by,
Time seems to pass on.
Ears closed, I lie,
In the hope of a better dawn.
I look out into the dark,
Nothingness seems to go on.
Eyes closed, I embark,
In the hope of a better dawn.
I hold my breath,
Reeking of that familiarity.
Mouth open, I forget,
In the hope of a better reality.
I feel around,
Seeking what once warmed me.
Arms open, I surround...
NoSleep.
Eyes closed,
Yet sleep evades you.
Questions posed,
Your mind’s closed too.
Feign sleep,
You lie there in hope.
Look deep,
Rerun memories like a soap.
Hours fly,
Instances play out in your head.
People lie,
Relationships that are now dead.
Turn right,
You think of the times you were weak.
Turn left,
You feel humbled, meek.
Eyes open,
You lie there in vain.
Feeling sullen,
You...
Things.
Things aren’t always what they seem,
One moment it’s here, the next a distant dream.
Things aren’t defined by what you do,
Not just by action, but inaction too.
Things aren’t always as you’d like them to be,
One moment it’s clear, the next you can barely see.
Things aren’t defined by what others say,
It can never be just black and white, but gray.
Things aren’t always how you’d imagine it...
March 2012
2 posts
Pointless.
Empty,
Your thoughts have escaped you.
Infinity,
The answers you wish you knew.
Illusion,
Is it all just a show.
Delusion,
I choose to ignore what I know.
Fear,
I’m afraid and I show it.
Dear,
I love you and I hide it.
Pressure,
I’m in deep and lost.
Pleasure,
I’m in deep but there is a cost.
Feeling,
I’m only human, effusive.
Healing,
It hurts less when...
Free.
Strange, a strange feeling,
Your head’s reeling.
Weightless, a weight lifted,
You feel gifted.
Glee, overcome with glee,
You’re finally free.
February 2012
3 posts
“Sometimes someone says something really small and it just fits right into this...”
“No one likes the feeling of being alone. Everyone likes to be wanted by someone,...”
Again.
Too many emotions,
Too much excitement,
Your heart beats,
It’s the middle of the night.
You’re set thinking,
You’re shocked, the suprise.
Your heart is racing,
It’s almost sunrise.
Did that just happen,
Or was I just dreaming.
Your heart beats fasten,
Your eyes gleaming.
The feelings rush back,
Not the pleasant ones, you fear.
Your heart stops, dead in track,
...
January 2012
7 posts
Sunrise.
Death is a dear friend,
An undying lover, a fiend.
To some of us an inevitable end.
To others a chance to mend.
It’s always unforeseeably near,
It weighs on us, makes life dear.
But to the others who’ve proclaimed for long,
And sing this tired and weary song,
Live life to the fullest;
It’s like the Sun trying to rise in the west.
Trying to change the way we live
In the...
HappyEnding.
It’s time for you to sit put and give up your pride And really leave it all behind, and abide. In silence lies the solution. Make it a vow, the only resolution. Yes they are hard to keep And if broken, one must weep. You see it’s always the weakest That don’t give up and resist. In silence lies your strength, your might, Your only way out, the light. It’s easy to shout and blame. It’s easy to...
Promise.
Sometimes it’s funny,
How when everything in life seems right
You feel lost and weary.
Where am I going, have I lost sight?
You find reasons, excuses
Unable to figure out what to do next,
You pause and reach dead ends.
Where am I going, do I really know what’s best?
It’s all been planned, laid out for you,
You’re in for sure, just go for it
Its your job to pursue
But what if you don’t...
StayingMum.
Times are troubling,
Our minds rumbling.
Children begotten,
Feelings forgotten.
Thoughts whirling,
Words hurling.
Tension rising,
Not surprising.
One gushes,
The other rushes.
No options,
No sides.
Feeling numb,
Staying mum.
Tears well,
Hearts swell.
All forgiven,
Not forgotten.
Hit replay,
Here to stay.
Realization sinks,
Spirit quits.
No solution,
No resolution.
Trouble...
Just go for it.
Fuck waiting for the right moment,
I just want to go for it, no qualms.
Forget restrictions, commitment,
Expectations and norms,
I just want to live each moment and really relish it.
What’s life without a little insanity?
Are you just going to be put and sit,
Passing up on all spontaneity?
Yes people talk and judge
And they really always will,
So why fear, hold on to a grudge.
Let...
The Mind.
The mind is fickle,
Capricious am I, sudden thoughts they trickle
Or creep up when I least expect them to.
Never had I thought I’d feel the way I do.
For many suppose and many assume,
Presumptuous by the dozen, their thoughts consume
And manifest the ever changing mind.
One day you’re a harlot, the next day you find
That you’ve taken what isn’t yours.
You try to justify, clarify, make...
Mosaic of Life.
Red, green, yellow, blue
I see people of every hue.
Going through life as happy as can be,
But to most this isn’t the reality.
Still life, beauty to be appreciated
Motionless, still, constantly depreciated.
That’s how most of us are,
We seem so connected and yet so far.
A smile, a friendly exchange,
We live, enjoy, engage.
Identifying friend from foe,
We seem so connected,
But are we,...
October 2011
2 posts
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A feeling of easiness Replaces the general queasiness. A feeling of vulnerability Replaces the need of acceptability. A feeling of individuality Replaces the need for conformity. My eyes gleam As I find myself beam. Thoughts fill in As the feeling sinks in. Holding a piece that’s yours to keep, I hold the other, forever mine to keep. Days, months, years go, An emptiness begins to...
Here's to it.
Sometimes we find ourselves contemplating,
We feel an emptiness or a void, a storm tempering.
Telling ourselves it’s all okay
Unable to wrap our minds around it, just a bad day.
What’s bothering you.
You’re flustered, breathless, your mind’s given up on you.
Claim you don’t know.
Saying you’re ok.
Deep inside you know what sparked this worry, this pain, this anxiety,
Showing you what...
August 2011
1 post
SummerLove.
It’s that time of the year again.
All hail Cupid and his warm, dubious snare,
No it’s not February, all those romances in vain,
Shining down on new lovers, a magnified glare,
It’s just another Summer day.
Everything seems to be falling in place so perfectly.
Seems like you and I are here to stay,
The perfect time for chances, spontaneity.
So we take a chance,
Loving the feeling, my mind...
July 2011
2 posts
better.
One would consider it a mistake,
A risk not worth to take.
Do away with the hindrance.
Call it whatever you like by appearance
A crush, a passing thing,
If anything, at best a fling.
Agreed, concurred,
I listened, I heard.
Then why waste my time
If you aren’t worth a dime?
Neither to yourself
Nor to anybody else.
You hold yourself so low
Put down all you could be, you know.
Then why...
goodbye.
I know I didn’t say this as much as I should have said. I didn’t appreciate the things you did and it all lead, To you leaving me with things unsaid, Me wanting to do the things I wanted to in my head. I miss you, yet it’s too late, To undo, do, show, reciprocate. I miss you and I hope you know, That when I think of you, I grow. I learn to be, to love, to care It’s like you’re still here...
June 2011
2 posts
happy.
Yeah I waited around, let my hopes up a bit. Did it pass? No it didn’t. Yeah I waited around, given the time. Time has passed, passed it’s prime. Guess it was never meant to be Need to let go with a smile, happy. I don’t think you ever realized the gravity, Or even considered it a possibility. Perhaps you were afraid, Even then you should’ve said something, cleared my head. Oh well it...
Free.
It’s funny to see
The people around me.
Some are pleasant, some bitter,
Some delusional, others no better,
Some sweet, some fake
And it’s really all I can take.
When I see you I feel better, at ease.
I’ve really stopped trying to please,
When the ones I hold dear
Are all I need; are so near.
Accept me for who I am and what I do
Insecure, emotional, hyper, impulsive too.
Atleast I’m not...
May 2011
1 post
Push.
I must start,
No more procrastination.
Do my part
With a renewed sense of determination.
I need to change my mindset;
I can do it and am certainly good enough.
I’m rough around the edges
Though once polished; tough
And definitely pushes.
Eventhough I may give up, I may give in,
I never forget
What made me begin.
Regret is the worst debt I can owe to myself,
So I vow myself to tap my...
April 2011
2 posts
End.
There are days I think to myself,
More often than just once or twice,
I’m done,
Let’s make today different, nice.
So I decide on what to do,
I decide to just go with the flow,
I live,
Let loose, let go.
Sometimes life doesn’t go as planned;
What plan had I to begin with?
I pause,
Reflect, smile ‘cos it’s the fifth.
And I realize life isn’t perfect,
And neither were you and I.
I...
Undisclosed.
If only you knew the way I really feel about you
If only I knew you felt about me that way too.
Our friendship is just a cover for what’s really in store
I maybe unsure, but I surely want more.
One moment is all it could take; a word, a confession,
A hidden desire, a sudden realization,
To make you and me.
We ♥
:)
I tried I did Tried moving on, ready, convinced. But did the feelings just go away? Sadly they were here to stay. So here’s me telling you how I really feel, Remember I’m not trying to seal any deal. I’ve liked you since the month of April Thought about it, kept it to myself still, Till that very day I told you how I felt in the month of May. Scared, anxious and quite tense My heart...
Unwritten.
Laid it out all there You choose to ignore it yet I know you’re aware. I feel frustrated at myself, scared too I just can’t think of a present without you. I never thought it would be this way, The feelings would just go away. But they didn’t a month passed or two, I let it be, you hadn’t a clue. Till that one night, I gave in Couldn’t keep it in any longer, I let you in. You were caught...
Expectations.
Expectations. We all have them. Even the few of us who claim to keep them at a minimum to save ourselves from ultimate disappointment can’t help but sometimes expect something from someone or out of a certain situation. Expectations are generally of two kinds- the best kind and the worst.
Generally people fall in the category of “Hoping for the Best”. The optimists as I would call them. No matter...